I'm Feeling

think quite apt for me ah. lol

fucking love this! this song is the bomb.
it BOOM

trainings haven't been easy.
i felt bad.
and stupid.
i looked bad.
and pathetic.
am i cut for it? i wonder.

so far, sustained 2 injuries.
this screams weakness.

hang in there guops!

i've received 2 happy teachers' day greetings altogether.
really came as a surprise because i'm only a tutor but oh well,
it was really nice nevertheless. =)

happy teachers' day gp! 

awesome to me being so done with my reservist
and secondly, awesome to me being thru to the coming APEC 09 event!

and to the Presidents and Prime Ministers coming down,
here i come!
especially Obama. hahahhaa

anyway, have been thinking of taking up classes before sch starts.
any recommendations anyone?!

RELEASE ME.............................

so today was the start of my reservist for 2 weeks.
and without a doubt, i still hate ns very much. to the core.
and like what desmond said, to the core of the earth! (LOL. damn nonsense that guy)

the feeling is back! the gloomy moody and melancholy feel is back.
the urges for all the comfort food- chocs and bubbletea is back too.

i dunno why that when it comes to ns, i just can't pull myself together somehow.
saving grace is that my friends are all back for reservist with me.

so as i was yacking ' sian sian sian' all the way from the kitchen to my room to mom when i walked passed her just now,
she  was like 'aiyo why u always so negative one?? ns is like that one mah no choice'
that suddenly brought me back to a more stable state of mind and that i felt better instantly.
weird. really weird. but i guess it is really true that i have no choice and shouldnt be so negative.
i guess i sometimes need someone to told me off. 

next fri hurry come.
i am waiting!

so i finally checked out red-dot brewhouse. the band was fantastic. best band ever no joke.
nice ambience, both indoor and outdoor.
and then lotsa camwhore session.
alot in eileen's camera.

Sat 031

was sharing with alfred the happenings in redang during our supper yesterday and i found out that he wants to go backpacking too!!!
so excited upon hearing this.
1 more buddy for backpacking hahha
though i'd like to backpack alone sometime in my life.

and so suddenly, right now, i feel like whipping my bag out immediately and start packing my clothes and leave like now!!!

because, i wanna say bye bye to this lonely world.